because all I have done in the last week is bubble, play bad and spew, or play good and get reamed by three outers. Or a combination of all three.
Sucked in AIPS Razz (not a surprise, that's been a bad run all year), played horribly in the last couple of Mookies by simply not focusing very hard early and herocalling too much - I'm basically been breakeven for the last couple of months after a pretty hot first 2/3rds of the year.
On the one hand, I'm hitting a lot of variance - people flopping two pair on me, getting there on draws, me whiffing coinflips - but I'm also not playing well enough to weather those inevitable, unavoidable coolers and beats. It's frustrating, because I can usually manufacture a way through these obstacles, and I'm just not doing it consistently enough.
So I anticipate this babygirlheff will get here sooner than the end of the month. We shall see. I'm sure I really have no idea what I am in for.